Mr. Curiosity

Here I am, singing along.. :)

The Devil Wears...?

Andy Sachs: I don't think I'm like that. I couldn't do what you did to Nigel, Miranda. I couldn't do something like that.
Miranda Priestly: You already did. To Emily.
Andy Sachs: That's not what I... no, that was different. I didn't have a choice.
Miranda Priestly: No, no, you chose. You chose to get ahead. You want this life. Those choices are necessary.
Andy Sachs: But what if this isn't what I want? I mean what if I don't wanna live the way you live?
Miranda Priestly: Oh, don't be ridiculous. Andrea. Everybody wants this. Everybody wants to be us.
-The Devil Wears Prada, movie dialog

It was late at night, when I stumbled upon this movie on the television, and Andrea's question echoed in my mind afterwards.. "What if I don't wanna live the way you live?"

And the answer? Almost everyone says what Miranda said, "Don't be ridiculous, everybody wants this."
Well, if life choice is about statistics, we can survey hundreds of people and analyze which answer will be given by the majority of people.. Alas, majority sometimes doesn't represent the truth.. As well as life choice sometimes can't be inferred from statistics.. And maybe that's why, sometimes asking people in a certain matter doesn't help us to decide our choice...

I was wondering, whether I have to see my life now like I saw Andrea's life in the movie.. (well, off course not the glamorous part of it, :p). We can see clearly that Andrea was misplaced in the fashion world. Off course it is because the author leads us to think like that.. that her good nature and simple life actually can be spoiled by the noise and ambition.. and that in the end, she choose the right thing to step out of the noisy life. But, in our reality, I couldn't see it as clear as in the movie.. Until I ponder over it..

Could it be possible that I pursue something the way Miranda Priestly pursue her whole achievement?
We are led to agree that Miranda was the devil disguised in those exquisite attire.. But could it also possible that the devil comes in other attire.. here, in this particular life.. And I see it and praise it like other people praise Miranda Priestly for her achievement? Should I change my point of view and consider to step out of the "arena" like Andrea did, even though so many people seem to be longing for it?

 

                                                                        - Nigel to andrea

Sang Alkemis

Kabarnya ia bisa mengubah logam apa pun menjadi emas..Hmm...
Saya tidak begitu tertarik dengan logam kuning berkilau itu..

Tapi bagaimana kalau.. emas itu adalah lambang untuk kebaikan apa pun dalam hidup ini?

Mengubah logam apa pun menjadi emas.. Mungkin mirip dengan mengubah batu bata yang dilemparkan orang pada kita.. Tak perlu memaki si pelempar.. dikumpulkan saja batu batanya, siapa tahu bisa membangun rumah darinya. :)

Seperti apa yang kita punya..
Kadang kita tak tahu ia baik atau tidak untuk kita..
Sebagian orang bersikeras bahwa mereka tahu apa yang terbaik bagi mereka, lalu berusaha sekuat tenaga mengejarnya..
Mungkin mereka benar..
Tapi, ketika kenyataan tak sesuai impian.. biarlah semua keadaan kita ubah menjadi sebuah kebaikan..
Seperti kata orang, kalau nasi sudah jadi bubur... ya sekalian dibuat bubur ayam saja, yang enak, dan menyehatkan.

Bukankah setiap muslim itu amat baik urusannya.. bila ditimpa musibah ia bersabar, dan bila diberikan nikmat maka ia bersyukur.. kedua perihal itu baik baginya.. musibah ataupun karunia, pada akhirnya ditransformasi menjadi sesuatu yang bernilai di mata-Nya..

Semoga..

Semoga saja, kita bisa mentransformasi apa yang kita punya, menjadi sesuatu yang bernilai.. walau ia bukan si logam kuning berkilau.. ;)

Polaritas

Hanya dalam sunyi sebuah bunyi bisa berarti..
Hanya karena ada gelap maka terang menjadi bermakna..

Saya tak tahu persis bagaimana terjemahan yang sebenarnya. Kurang lebih, itulah yang saya ingat..
Bilangan minggu sudah berlalu saat kata-kata itu terlintas..
Minggu-minggu yang menuntun saya untuk akhirnya mengambil kesimpulan atas dua polaritas.. Wallohu a'lam..

Entah sejak kapan saya mulai membenturkan dua hal yang hendaknya sejalan..
mungkin karena hati saya terlalu bising hingga tak bisa mendengarkan arahan..
yang sampai ke telinga saya seolah-olah hanya "pilih A berarti kamu tidak termasuk B! pilih B berarti kamu musuh A! Pilih salah satu! Pilih salah satu!"

Sampai sekarang, saya tak pernah tahu mengapa A dan B berseteru, apakah perseteruan itu memang perlu, apakah damai adalah jalan keluar, ataukah mengalahkan salah satunya adalah lebih utama. Dan yang terpenting, apakah perseteruan A dan B itu urusan saya atau bukan. hehe.. :p
Tapi saya tahu satu hal, saya harus berjalan, dan di depan saya A dan B menghadang. Ingin sekali saya mengenal keduanya, karena sepertinya saya merasa bahwa ada kebaikan pada keduanya.. walau memang mereka bertolak belakang..

Pada akhirnya pertanyaan-pertanyaan saya di atas tetap belum terjawab..
Saya hanya mencoba berjalan sambil berusaha menganggap mereka sebagai bagian dari abjad..
A dan B memang akan tetap ada.. tak bisa saling memusnahkan.. karena kata takkan lengkap tanpa mereka..
Sebagaimana malam dan siang tak saling mengalahkan..
sebagaimana utara dan selatan tak saling meniadakan..
Polaritas sepertinya akan tetap ada..
Walau memang, suatu saat kita harus memilih salah satu di antara keduanya..
Namun, bukan karena kita berada di utara lantas selatan menjadi salah..
Indra ini memang terbatas, hanya bisa memandang dari tempat kita berdiri..
Mungkin hanya cukup utk menyadari,
bahwa sunyi dan bunyi masing-masing memiliki arti..
Gelap dan terang pun sama-sama memiliki makna..
Beyond the polarity.. there is only The Almighty..

HOME

I know this will take time to watch... one hour and a half... But perhaps.. the message in this movie.. is something that every human being should know..

I forget how I stumbled upon this video.. I guess it's when I was wandering around, trying to find a series of videos from Carl Sagan, entitled Cosmos.. then my search hit this movie..

I know, I weep a lot when I watch movies, even recently, when my friend asked me to re-watch  Three Idiots, which is a comedy movie, and I have watched it about three times.. but I never thought that a documentary movie also can make me cry, a lot. Until I watched this.

Inside, I just don't want to grow up..

As a kid, I learned to see the grown up as an annoying creature. :p
I read The Little Prince by Saint Exupery at the age of 6 or 7, when I was in my first class of elementary school.. And I feel that the book explained my feeling as a little kid completely.
Yes, yes.. the grown up never care about my beloved friends whose cat just gave birth to 5 cute kitten! they didn't care! :p

Yes, they laugh when my creative mind told me to make an interesting invention! huh! They thought that it doesn't make sense in their world, they didn't know that it totally makes sense for us!! Then, if they didn't know, they thought it's impossible. And they laugh. Or they just pretend to be appreciative. Pretending. huh. That was my thought about the grown up. :p

Remember when Saint Exupery told us about the Elephant inside a Boa snake? How he tried to draw it with an amazing imagination but the grown up just took a glimpse on it and thought that the picture was a HAT? it's elephant inside a boa snake! I cried loudly.

All the figures who were encountered by the little prince on his journey formed my perspective about people, perhaps, until this moment. Even though I was just a litle kid when I first read the book.. But I felt I could clearly distinguish who is the clown, who is the geographer, who is the King, who is the Judge, who is the businessman, and who is the lamp-keeper..in my real life. And since that time, I try to be not like them.

But, now... I'm affraid I just crossed into the enemy's side.. I'm afraid if I'm one of them.. :(

Or I was. Because lately I realized again how annoying it was to be one of them. So, let's consider I'm now on my way back to the kid's side..

Still.. I feel something's just not right.. It's nature's law that I have to be a grown up. I just can't be the female version of Peter Pan that refuse to grow up.. And even if I have a choice.. will I choose to live in Neverland? No, I don't think so... Even Peter Pan eventually decided to grow up (in one of the movie, at least), because he wanted to become a father..

Well, I believe there's a way to grow up wisefully.. I only have to discover it.. :)

Lethargy



Perhaps, it's never really physical.
You can exhaust yourself all day but become totally cheerful when you meet your loved one in the end of the day. Perhaps you can do anything for her, if your mind under the spell of love. Heavy physical works will not matter at all.

Disappointment, unsatisfying life, unhealthy mental attitude.. perhaps they are the ones that suck up all the energy and leave you in lethargy. Loss of perspective, no sense of purpose, unhealthy society... are the subtle factors that leave you disarmed and defeated.

The question is, how to get out of the mess and recharge your energy again?
I don't know..
Sometimes tears will help you cleaning up.. wash down the grief of disappointment, sooth the anger, make you see clearly.
Sometimes it is a moment of silence that will help you realize how noisy your life is. And how much you need to arrange the noise into harmony. A short moment of silence.
And a trust... to The Almighty.. and a hope.. and a determination, to be better.